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Friday, May 22, 2009


Oh... and apparently you can get fired from eating poppy seed muffins!  Ha!  You have to mention something to the test people when you go in for your drug test!  Whowouldathunk??? 

4:27PM - In Florida!!! And loving it so far...

The weather sucks here right now... been raining... But I don't care.  I am here for my boyfriend.  He is doing great here, he misses everyone at home.  I am the first one to come down.  :)  It was so emotional for me when I first saw him.  Had a tear.  He is working currently.  He won't get home till close to six.  Then hopefully we are going to go and do something!  He may be taking me to a club or something where I can have some fun!  :)  We are hopefully going to the beach tomorrow.  But it is suppose to rain everywhere around the area...  on both sides of the coast too!  Flooding everywhere. 

Well, since I was stuck here, I have done his laundry, dishes, vacuumed, didn't need it, but I did it anyways...lol  I have been very productive.  I have even taken a little nap.  Oh, and this morning I walked to the store down the street and picked up a cookie sheet so I could make some cheese sticks for lunch.  Mmmmm, it was so good.  :)  Also got some cashews for snacking on through the weekend.  We may be having some steak at some point while I am here.  :)  YUM!

Well, I do know that it will be so hard leaving again, but I already miss my kiddos!  I seriously cried leaving them at home.  It was really hard.  I should have been jumping for joy to get a chance to relax for a weekend.  But everything reminds me of them.  Thinking how they would love to do this and that while I have been here.  Looking at the other kids around here too makes me miss them more.  I love my children.  They are my everything!  I miss them!  Can't wait to hug them when I get home!  But I don't want to give Lane a hug bye.  :( 

I did get a job listing newspaper from down here and a listing of apartments for rent too.  So that way I can check it out for my future???  :)  I need a job before anything...  I also know it would be about a year and a half before I could really look into moving. 

Well, I am outtie!!! 

Sunday, April 19, 2009

4:46PM - It was really hard!

I had to see my boyfriend go today.  He is on his way to Florida.  He is in Tennessee now.  Probably close to GA now.  We had such a great time packing and laughing and having so much fun these past couple of  weeks.  But once we both calmed down and really thought about the fact he is moving 1000 miles away, I would cry.  I tried so hard to hold back the tears, but it is so hard.  I did really good these past few days.  But today I had some tears, and really sobbed a few times as well.  I can't imagine my life without him close by.  He is my everything.  I wish I were able to move there now too.  I wrote him a note and snuck it into his car on his driver's seat so he would see it before he left.  It was very short and sweet, and then he stuck out his hand out of the top of the car with an I love you sign.  That meant so much to me!  I will cherish the little things about him. 

I can't wait till I get the chance to fly down and be with him for a long weekend.  :)  Really excited about that!  :)  Next month I will be going down there.  Then, in July or August, we will be going on a road trip, just me and the kiddos!  :)  Can't wait till they see the beach for the first time!  :)  I have to look forward, instead of dwelling on the fact I will not be seeing him daily like I have been, or on our past.  We have overcome so much together and have managed to make it through all of this stuff so far, I know we will survive this too. 

I can see marriage in our future and I think we would have a great life together.  We both understand each other so well and we both are there for each other when we need to be.  He mentioned several times, "What would I do without you?"  I helped him with his packing and such for the trip down and I support him with everything he has done so far.  I know this move for him is not what I personally want, but it has been his dream to live there.  So, I am supporting him in his dream.  I guess my dream will come true someday too, but not right now.  I wanted to live further south, not necessarily Florida, but just somewhere warmer, that is for sure.  I now have a big reason to find a way to move sooner.  I think I may wait till I have my four year degree first though.

So, now I am going to try to fill my void with selling stuff that I don't need and get rid of some old clothes and such.  The kids still have some 3T and 4T clothes that I found in my closet, so I can get rid of those, someone will buy them or something.  :)  At least I have a few things I am doing.  I have softball every week for myself and for Logan and Zoe.  So, at least I am busy with things.  :)

Current mood: but sad

Tuesday, March 31, 2009


I am sad.  My love of eleven years is moving away.  I am sad.  My boyfriend is moving 800+ miles away from here.  I am sad.  Mira is really sad about it.  I am sad.  He is sad.  I am sad.  I need to stay busy.  I am sad.  So I don't think about it.  I am sad.  He has done more for me than anybody in my life has done for me.  I am sad.  We are planning for vacations after vacations.  I am sad.  He is going to still be there for us.  I am sad.  I am still going to be there for him.  I am sad.  I love him so much.  I am sad.

If I had the chance to move down there with him, I so would.  He is my everything.  I love this man more than anyone can understand.  We had some rough times, but we have such strong communication skills that we work through everything.  The kids take after him so well.  It is going to be hard to see him move away.  Mira is the one that is going to have it harder than the other two.  Mira tells me he is like a daddy to her.  It is hard for me to be strong for them.  It is hard for me to be strong for even Lane, but I try so hard to be strong.  I think the best thing for me is to stay busy.  I am going to be working a lot this summer if at all possible.  I have applied to a couple of jobs so far.  I am thinking about moving to KY too.  If Lane is not in Ohio, maybe I should.  I need to find a bunch of information out now so I know what I can do if I decide to move away too.  Maybe even go way up north to Cleveland or some other better city than Middletown.  I would prefer no snow at all.  But I would move anywhere if there is a good job for me.  I am at the point in my life that I need to figure out some things.  I am 26 years old and I feel that I could be so much more successful.  Middletown is so not it!  There is absolutely nothing here!  There are some old classmates that have moved away, one in California, one in New York, one in Atlanta, Georgia, and they all think Ohio, Middletown is nothing and they think everyone should move out of Middletown since we are nothing here.  Blah.

I am really happy for Lane and excited for him, but I am so sad at the same time.  He is worried he is not going to like it being away from everyone.  He had always said he could leave me here, but as time gets a little closer, he is not ready to leave me and my children.  He loves us so much.  We had a great time on Friday night at the dance we went to and then we talked for hours about things.  

This is what the plans are.  We will probably see each other every other month at least, on average.  I am going to fly down in May, for a long weekend.  Then he will probably get a three day weekend and fly here sometime in the summer, hopefully.  We are going to get a rental car and drive down for a week and a half.  :)  The kids will see the ocean for the first time.  I will work as much as I can so I can save money and he is going to help if at all possible.  We will see each other at least three times this summer.  :)  Then he will be home for Thanksgiving and Christmas.  I am hoping that next year for my birthday, we will drive down there again, or better yet, just I go for a weekend and I will fly down.  :)  That is too far in the future.  That is not till next Jan.  I know we will see each other probably at least six times out of the year.  He will make every attempt to be here any chance he gets.  The saddest thing for me is that the kids will struggle to see him leave again, over and over.  They are so attached to him.  He is leaving in less than three weeks!

The plan is for me to stay the night the day before he leaves.  So I can say bye to him one last time.  That will be really hard for me, but I want to do this.  I want to be able to sleep next to him and be able to cuddle with him one last time, before he leaves.  This is going to be really really really difficult for me.  I am so use to seeing him everyday just about.  And same goes for him.  It will be really hard for him too.  After everything we have gone through, I will have to say, we will survive this too.  

Maybe sometime in the future I will move down there, but not anytime soon.  I need to become more independent and whatnot.  So, yeah, I am doing that, for sure.  

I know if I were to ever move out of state, I would come home probably at least Christmas, maybe Thanksgiving, and one or two more times throughout the year at minimum.  I am looking into moving to KY.  Seriously, if Lane is not in Ohio, I would move somewhere, but not that far away, at least at first.  I am tempted to go back to Dale Hollow.  Not sure yet.  Going to research things first.  

I am thinking about technical school.  I could go for x-ray tech or be a sonogram technician.  I would be out of school in two years with a degree and probably get a job shortly after for sure.  If I continue with social work, it will take me three years.  Maybe that would be a better solution.  I could move to a big city and work in a hospital.  I would work in a different state.  Ohio is so awful now.  I could work in Middletown, but I don't want to work for them at all.  I hope to work in a big city hospital, if that is what I would do...

My mind is so filled with things and it is hard to stay on task.  I am struggling so much right now not to cry in front of the kids everyday. 


Sunday, February 15, 2009


Things are going good I think.  My kids will be able to play softball again this year.  It has gone up $60 since last year for the three of them... $20 more per kid!!!  That is ridiculous!  Ugh!  They are very lucky they are going to be able to play this year.  Things have been very rough lately for me.  I have no way to pay for things that expensive, but whatever.  

I am going to be playing softball too, but I am only going to play when my kids are not playing so that means, I am just a back up player, so I dont have to pay to play, which is awesome!!!  I will be playing this fall and will have to pay then, but I will be able to do this!  I am sooooo excited about the fact that just my kids are going to be able to play this year though!  Mira is going to be doing coach pitch this year, Logan and Zoe will be on other teams for teeball.  I am psyched! 

Well, I just found out that my friend needs someone to go with her on a roadtrip with her daughter and if we went we would rent a van to go down to KY!  So, if we go it would be this weekend.  I am all game for it!  We would go to the west side of KY, about three hours west of where their great grandparents live... so maybe we would get a chance to visit there too.  This would be a good trial run for when we finally make it to Florida or another area with all the kids and see how it goes with them.  The father of my friends kid is going to pay for some of it too, which is a major plus!  I will have to pay my friend back and even if I pay her back slowly, it will work.  I dont have the money to do this, but I think this will work out okay.  We will see...

Valentines Day... was a wonderful day!  My bf and I went to see a movie.  We went to see the movie Mall Cop.  It was pretty good I thought.  Lane liked it too.  We laughed quite often!  I would recommend it to anyone!

More updates...
- I am appreciating Romeo and Juliet more thanks to Theatre Class!
- I love being a mom more and more it seems!
- I have such great friends, the few I have are just wonderful!
- I am really excited about the better weather!
- Logan is likely to marry my friends daughter...  we are planning the wedding as we speak!
- By the way, Logan is such a gentleman with her, lets her go first and everything!
- My kids may be going to a different school next year.
- I may hold Logan and Zoe back a year in school.
- I wish I would have been able to buy my kids some yearbooks for their memories, but had no money to do so, blah, that makes me sad.
- Did I mention softball season is coming up...  That makes me excited!
- My friend and I want another baby... shh...lol  but not happening anytime soon for either of us.  I doubt I will have any more... though, I will always want one more down the road, when I am successful!
- I have a major skill according to my boss and she thinks I could work for any college in the U.S.  YAY!
- I want to live somewhere where it never snows, prefer Florida...  Or Texas.  I would like to stay on the East side of the U.S. I think.  I may venture out towards the west someday.
- My goal is to be moved away in four years or less.  That would give me time to graduate with a Bachelors degree and find a good job or career.
- I cant wait till my kids can see their father again.
- I just found out I am going to be a biological aunt for the first time, from my half brother, Andrew, soon.  I havent seen him in two years and only seen him I think a total of three times since I was 19, when I met him.
I also found out that my biological father is with his ex who he has a five year old kid with, whom I have yet to meet....  I want to meet my five year old sister...
- I have soooo many things I could add...


Thursday, February 12, 2009


Remember to always check your child's homework!


Now the story behind the photo:

Dear Mrs. Jones,

I wish to clarify that I am not now, nor have I ever been, an exotic dancer.
I work at Home Depot and I told my daughter how hectic it was last week before the blizzard hit. I told her we sold out every single shovel we had, and then I found one more in the back room, and that several people were fighting over who would get it. Her picture doesn't show me dancing around a pole. It's supposed to depict me selling the last snow shovel we had at Home Depot.

From now on I will remember to check her homework more thoroughly before she turns it in.

Mrs. Smith

1:53PM - Holy Shit!


This is really sad and incredibly wrong, but whatever.  Anything goes now!

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

7:43PM - My birthday...

My Christmas holiday was wonderful!  My boyfriend, Lane, gave me a great gift!  It actually made me cry!  It was a digital frame and he already had some pictures ready to play in it.  It was an awesome gift!  It had us camping this past Fall and some oldies of the kids when they were little.  The picture that is displayed below is of Mira when we were in Dayton back when she was three.   

Then for New Years Eve we hung out with my sister, Courtney and her boyfriend, JR, at Fountain Square in Cincinnati.  It was a great time.  I had one drink and I had my new years kiss!  YAY!  I havent had a new years kiss in so long, it was wonderful!  LOL...  And my goofy sister is in the middle behind us making a stupid face...LMAO!

For my bday...
My boyfriend, Lane, took him and I to see the play Grease with Taylor Hicks in it.  It was GREAT!  It was freakin expensive, $165 for the two of us.  That is not including dinner and the playbook he bought there for me to take to class to show my teacher, but I will be giving him that back.  But it was a wonderful wonderful time!  I felt so good and I dressed up really pretty, in a dress and high heels.  I wish I had taken more pictures than I did, just one was taken on my birthday.


Then on Saturday, I celebrated my birthday with my sister, her boyfriend, JR, and my friend Darran.  We had a great time.  We went to Dave and Busters.  It was a lot of fun.  I got a little drunk...LMAO!  I had six drinks, was stumbling a little by the time we were leaving.  It was a lot of fun though.  I played a couple of games while we were there.  It was fun.  Should have taken some pictures there though...  ohwell...

That is my quick update with a few pictures to show.  Here are some more pictures if you are interested in more...


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This is my family on my moms side for Xmas

This is Cincinnati as we arrive in downtown for New Years

My sister Courtney and her boyfriend JR during New Years at Fountain Square

This is me at the Fountain Square waiting for ice skates

This is me at the ice skating rink.  It was a lot of fun and free!  LOL...

This is me on Jan 24th about to celebrate with friends at Applebees for dinner for my birthday, a day late

I like and hate this one...lol... I love my eyes in this one though...lol

I really wanted this dress... it was on a major sale...  75 % off!!!

This is what happens when you have cabin fever...

Again, this is what cabin fever does to you...lol  My son is *Hannah Montana* here...LMAO! 

7:05PM - Needed to update...

Is your best frien​d a virgi​n still​?​​
nope, he and I lost our virginity to each other.  He is my boyfriend and my bestest friend in the whole world.  I love this man like you wouldnt believe.  But my other best friend, she has a kid, does that answer your question...lol

How'​​s your heart​ latel​y?​​
GREAT! Happy and healthy and in love!

What would​ happe​n if you had a baby with the last perso​n you kisse​d?​​
um... that would be with my kid... that would be bad... but last guy I kissed would be my boyfriend, and it would be okay... but would rather wait a little while.  He would be there for all of us and take care of the baby like he does with my other three.

Are you shy?

Are you sarca​stic?​​

Who was the last perso​n you had a deep conve​rsati​on with?​​
Lane, and it was wonderful!  We dont have the time to have such nice deep conversations.  With kids and all...lol

Are you talka​tive?​​
if I am drunk, very much so...LMAO!

Are you liste​ning to music​ right​ now?

Are you curre​ntly wanti​ng any pierc​ings or tatto​os?​​
my eye piercing closed up on me... booo!  But I probably wont get another one. 

Do you have any?
no tats

Do you swear​ in front​ of your paren​ts?​​
I am not a cusser type of person, so no

Your enemy​ is at your doors​tep beggi​ng for forgi​venes​s,​​
what would​ you do?
probably forgive, I am quick to forgive most of the time.

What pisse​d you off yeste​rday?​​
the snow, not being about to work...

What are you suppo​sed to be doing​ right​ now?
laundry would be good...

Have you ever kisse​d anyon​e who'​​s name start​ed with a F?
I don't think so

Does anyon​e hate you?
probably, but I dont care

Are you happy​ with life right​ now?
it could always be better, but yes, I am very happy with my life right now.  Why wouldnt I be...  I have a great boyfriend, great kids, and school is going very well.

What jewel​ry are you curre​ntly weari​ng?​​
nothing right now

Do you miss someo​ne?​​
yeah, Lane... he is in Florida and Georgia till Monday...  so sad for me...

Have you ever dated​ someo​ne longe​r than a year?​​
yes, Lane for over two years in the past and we are back together, we would probably total up to two and a half years combined now, or longer.  And if we never split, we would be together for over ten years now...lol

But Michael and I dated for about three years, the father of my kids.

Do you have a chair​ in your room?​​
yes with my desk

What color​ is your hair?​​
light brown

Is anyon​e jealo​us of you?
probably, but I dont care

Who was the last perso​n you were in a car with?​​

Does anyth​ing hurt on your body?​​
I have a headache right now...

Are you going​ anywh​ere for the next summe​r?​​
hopefully, it would be great.  I know we will be camping quite a bit...  Lane and I with the kids.  Hopefully go to a few different campsites.  I would love to take the kids to Myrtle Beach.  Maybe Lane will pay for us...lol  Doubt it.  I am hoping to get a job this summer so by end of summer maybe we could do something more than just camping.  I would also like to take them to Mammoth Cave, Natural Bridge, and a few other places close by.

Are you waiti​ng for anyon​e to call right​ now?
no, not necessarily, but Lane is suppose to call on his way back from Georgia to Florida.

Have you ever regre​tted anyth​ing?​​
All the time, but I think my life would be totally different if that one major regret never happened...and I like my life now...

Do you miss how thing​s used to be?
sometimes I do, but things change.

Do you like to hold or be held?​​
mostly to be held, but I like both.

Last perso​n you saw other​ than your famil​y?​​
people I work with on Monday that I actually made conversation.

Whats​ irrit​ating​ you right​ now?
my headache and the fact I have some cabin fever...

Have you done anyth​ing embar​rassi​ng latel​y?​
I am sure I have but dont remember anything of that sort...

Do you know any peopl​e who are addic​ted to drugs​?​​
yeah who doesnt...

Do you think​ age matte​rs in relat​ionsh​ips?​​

Have you ever writt​en anyth​ing on a bathr​oom wall or door?​​
no way, that is destroying property...  I am afraid of being in trouble...lol

How long has it been since​ you said i love you to the oppos​ite sex?
to my son, today, but to another man, yesterday through text. 

Are you start​ing to reali​ze anyth​ing?​​
Yes, i realize more and more all the time

Monday, November 10, 2008


I gave the catalogs that you get in the mail to the kids and told them to look throught it and show me what they want so I could help them remember what to tell Santa... I was looking at prices for the toys the kids want for Christmas... and well, I can't buy that stuff.  Guess I am going to be wrapping cheapos this year.  Ugh!  I hate not having enough money to get them anything nice. 

Zoe wants is this Baby Alive that uses the potty that is 49 dollars, The Graco Baby Playset that is 30 dollars, a couple of barbie dolls (not the plain ones, the ones that are characters from high school musical) that are 20 dollars each, Loving Family Grand Dollhouse that is 65 dollars, FurReal Friends Newborn Assortment (all four that she wants-dog, monkey, panda, cat) and they are 13 dollars each, Cupcake Maker with Bonus that is 25 dollars, Hannah Montana Jewelry Box that is 10 dollars.  Hannah Montana Holiday Doll (barbie doll) that is 37 dollars.  A Hannah Montana Train Case that is 36 dollars.  She wants a Doll Canopy Bed and it is 65 dollars and a Doll Changing Table that is 65 dollars too.

Logan wants a microphone, drum set, and guitar... oh god!  Haven't looked at prices for those things.  He wants the Cars Twin Sheet set and Twin Comforter, but he doesn't have a bed to put it on, he is sleeping on a crib bed right now and the complete set is 43 dollars.  He wants the i-Dog, but I don't even know much about those...lol... it is 30 dollars.  He wants a dino that is 150 dollars...yeah right...  He wants a ripstick (two wheel skateboard) but I think that would be too hard for him at his age, but it is 97 dollars.  He wants a PowerWing it is a three wheel scooter that is 100 dollars.  He wants the movie Peanuts Holiday Collection, it is 30 dollars.    Mattel Flipping Frogs Game it is 25 dollars.  What I would love to get him is a loft bed so I can put him back in his bedroom.  But those are over 100 dollars.  Probably over 200 dollars.  Maybe by his birthday I will have a good job?  Doubt it.

Mira wants a Hannah Montana Malibu House... which is ridiculously overpriced... 150 dollars... not getting that for her!  She wants the Hannah Montana Twin Comforter, Sheet set, which is a total of 55 dollars.  (Two seperate pieces priced 34 and 21 dollars), she wants the FurReal Friends Biscuit My Lovin' Pup which is a huge dog that is 180 dollars, again, not getting that one either!  She wants a cell phone!  Nope not getting her one.  Some of her friends have cells, that is why...  She is only in first grade!  She wants a Pink and White Boombox that is 30 dollars.  She wants a trampoline (which is impossible to have one in my backyard, all concrete, but it is too expensive anyways-220 dollars.  She wants a Hannah Montana Electric Scooter by Razor, for 224 dollars.  (but it is two wheel and I can't get her to ride a two wheel bike...)  She wants a Fisher-Price Kid Tough Digital Camera which is 65 dollars.  A Hannah Montana Guitar Handbag that is 24 dollars.

They all want a tent for next summer, a kid tent.  Those are probably about 80 bucks or more.  (Not a play tent, a real tent.  If they are under 50 dollars, I may get them one two summers from now.  We do plan to camp a lot...)

They make it tough!  What am I suppose to get them???  I am probably going to have 100 dollars to spend on all of them.  I don't know what I am going to do.  

I know by next Christmas the girls are probably going to get a new bunkbed, their's is falling apart.  (It was a used one that was rusted a little.  The mattresses suck too.  But it can get us by for now.  I wish I had the money to get them half of what they want.  But I seriously am only going to be able to get maybe one thing they want.

Zoe total= 474
Logan total=475 (not including the microphone, drum set, and guitar...)
Mira total=948 (not including cell phone)

If they got everything they wanted... it would be a total of $1897!!!  (plus...)

Yeah, right!  Never going to happen.  

What I may do is get a shirt that has Hannah Montana on it for Mira, same for Zoe, and get Logan a shirt with Cars on it.  That would be about 30-40 dollars.  I hate being broke.  They are going to think Santa Clause doesn't like them anymore.  

I know my family won't help me with these types of gifts either, because they are struggling too.  What will probably happen is I will go to Dollar Stores a buy some crappy things and wrap them up individually so it will look like they have some presents.  This is going to be by far the worst Christmas they have ever had.  If they were two and three again, I could care less, but they know better, and they will know they are having a sucky Christmas.        

Sunday, October 26, 2008


Going out having fun with the kids and Lane.  :) 

Have to write about my evening last night.  It was just him and I from about 4:00 on.  It was a ton of fun. 

We went to Kenwood mall and walked around and ate at the Cheesecake Factory.  Good food, but not really my type.  lol...  I am like a little kid, want chicken tenders...lol


We went to Kentucky and walked around a place that has bars everywhere and it was a fun night.  There were lots of college people out and it was fun.  I mostly people watched and drank cherry vodka with sprite.  Three of those and I was done. 

We arrived back at his house and I crashed in his bed before he even made it to bed.  I was soooo tired!

But I had a blast!

Monday, October 20, 2008

10:43PM - Today...

My children were picked up after school and taken to my mom at a parking lot, my mother was avoiding her own house!  How absurd!  But I understand why though.  Anyways, dropped Logan and Zoe off at a parking lot around from my bank.  I went to the bank thinking I had money deposited from work in there and was hoping for fourty dollars to be in there at least...  NOPE...  It is not till this Friday... BLAH!  I ended up having to borrow money from my mom.  How sad is that?  I needed just 20 more dollars to get mins on my phone.  This month was a money month.  My normal rent.  I spent fifty bucks per kid for pics from school.  Switched title and stuff over on my new car.  Had to pay two months worth of insurance this month... oops, forgot last month...  I also have my monthly cell prepay.  So, yeah, this month killed me.  :(  I had money, and now it is all gone.  I am saddened.  But I know I will be okay.  I can survive on barely any money and I have no worries except tags for my car.  All other bills are taken care of for a while.  Till the end of the month of November.

Well, anyways, my sister Courtney picked up Zoe for the evening.  Zoe is like a babysitter.  Courtney has a little one, Madison, she is going to be three in March.  Zoe had a pretty good time tonight with them I think.  My sister just moved out of my mom's and her dad's last Wed.  She is still setting up everything and she is trying to make it fun for Madison.  It is not working as well as she hoped.  lol...  But I know she is really happy with her man, JR, and he is a wonderful man to her and Madison.  Not Madison's dad though.  They are having a baby too.  She is about two and a half months pregnant I believe.  She hates being pregnant.  I think it is fun being pregnant...lol She has a long way to go till she is done being pregnant.

Picked them up from everywhere and headed to Lane's to say hi.  His friend, Kelly, who is an ex girlfriend of his, is down.  She is from two hours away.  She is staying for the night.  I like her.  She apparently been tired and cranky today.  :(  Well, we said hi and hung out for about ten mins before heading home.  Lane was happy to see us.  I trust him completely to allow him to have a girl stay the night...lol  Most of his friends are girls and I know how he was with me when he was with someone and we were just friends.  :)  Besides he said, she gets the couch...lol  Usually she would sleep in his bed with him, but one, it is a very small bed, two, he says she takes all the bed, three, she does a boyfriend too.  I am glad that I have met her.  She is a really nice girl.  Seen her three times now.  She is on my myspace as a friend too. 

We come home and I put the kids to bed and doing laundry and such.  So, been fun...

Sunday, October 19, 2008


We went camping this weekend.  Tons of fun. 

Lane went out there before we did.  He set up the tent before we got there... he is talented... hard tent to set up!  (Says on box can sleep eight people, but I think you can fit 12 people in there easily!)  The kids and I finally get there and we set up for dinner and had yummy camp food (hotdogs [over the fire] and hamburgers).  We walked around the campsite some and looked for critters after it was dark.  :)  Saw a skunk...  :)  The kids were terrified the skunk would spray us...  lol...  The kids went to bed in no time!  :)  Lane and I chilled a little, not very long, before turning ourselves in for bed too.  During the night though...  Lane said, I coughed on him...haha... oops. 

Lane woke up with Logan at about seven thirty, and the girls woke up about half hour later and I SLEPT IN!  Isn't he just wonderful!  I woke up to hot chocolate!  Yum!  Made by Lane.  Kids were drinking hot chocolate when I woke.  We ate some breakfast, a mixture of things.  (Donuts, sausage, poptarts)  For lunch, I made TACOS!  It turned out pretty good.  :)  Had a small pan to cook in, but I did alright.  We had two pounds worth of tacos.  It was yummy!  :)  After a while we went to the Nature Center and looked at the mountain lion, and the birds they have and went inside the building to look at turtles and snakes.  The kids loved it.  This time they knew what to expect there, because we went not too long ago...  :)  Came back to campsite and hung out.  They played at the park, which was directly in front of our campsite.  :)  It was wonderful!  I could stay warm with the campfire, while they played with new made friends.  Logan played with a nine year old girl, Mira played with anyone and everyone.  Zoe played with a girl that appeared to be as old as ten.  (All my children love to play with older kids, though, Zoe will usually play with kids younger than her...)  Dinner was hotdogs, sausage, and hamburgers.  Made myself a double cheeseburger!  It was yummy, once again!  Food the whole weekend was delicious!

Once again, Lane woke up with the kids and let me sleep in!  Two mornings in a row!  He is really sweet!  Had hot chocolate for the kids and they were finishing up on it when I woke.  I didn't want any hot chocolate.. I had milk.  Had chocolate chip muffins for breakfast, and kids finished the donuts.  We also had sausage and bacon.  Well, I was the only one who ate the bacon, no one else likes it...)  We allowed the kids to go to the park while we cleaned up the campsite.  They played for a while and we packed up everything except food stuff.  We cooked lunch, hotdogs, hamburgers, and sausages again. Once we were packed, we left and went to a trail, Cedar Falls, it was a lot of fun and the kids enjoyed the trail.  It was a decent trail.  It had some hard spots for the kids, but they managed very well.  After that trail, we had a snack, and headed off for another trail, Sycamore Trail.  Another fabulous trail!  Zoe had to pee, so we headed to the Lodge they have and sat in there after the restroom break and chilled for a little while.  It was so relaxing in there.  Sat in rocking chairs and looked at the sunset for a little while.  Decided to do one more trail before it got too dark.  Went on another trail that is at the Lodge, can't remember the name, but that one was really fun.  We looked at the lake from the mountain top and it was just gorgeous!  The sun hitting the water was just beautiful!  We ended up going down the mountain and went down to the water and Mira spotted a shell in no time.  I found one shell as well and gave it to her.  We tried skipping rocks, couldn't really skip more than two times with any rock we found.  There were no flat rocks!  But the kids had fun throwing the rocks in the water.  We headed out and got back to the car and it was about dark then.  We left and headed back home stopping at LaRosa's to eat an official dinner before heading on home.  Poor Logan, had to wake him to eat, and Zoe, she was ready to go to bed, but she stayed awake for me. 

Once we got home, Logan took his shoes and socks off and went straight to bed.  Mira did the same.  Zoe wanted to take her bath tonight no matter how tired she was, so that way she can sleep in tomorrow...lol  So, I have to wake logan and Mira, hoping not to wake Zoe, so they can bathe before school. :) 

It has been a fun weekend to say the least.  Oh, by the way, Lane told me today, he loves me!  :)  So, I have been  beaming since!

Monday, October 13, 2008


Michael is coming back!  In four days and a wake, he will be leaving from the Middle East and if no major delays, he will be touching down on Sunday!  So, Saturday he leaves, and Sunday he is here.  But though, the kids may not see him until Monday.  Because he may arrive too late.  It depends on what time he makes it in.  He wants to see the kids so bad.  I am so excited!  I have been trying not to count down the days or hours,but I do.  I am afraid it will take longer than it really is if I do,but in reality to me it has not.  I have been busy enough not to think about it.  The kids don't realize how soon it is.  Though they ask if we are going to see him now or tomorrow or whatever.  Ha... Lane was on the phone and I had to pee and didn't want to be on the phone and gave the phone to Logan and apparently Logan thought it was his daddy on the phone.  It has been a lot with Michael becoming a part of their lives again.  I think it is great.  :)  He has been more involved.  Mira types to him now too.  It is so cute.

They have had a chance to actually see him through web cam, which I think is a thrill for them.  He has had a chance to see them too.  :)  It has been great! 

On another note, Mira got her cast off today!  :)  I am so excited for her.  She is not allowed to do monkey bars... and the doctor told her no monkey bars... lol

I had told the doctor that she was doing the monkey bars last night at the park and I didn't think it was a good idea.  So, I am glad that the doctor said no...  :)  So she has to wait a couple of weeks before she can be on monkey bars.

She is healed though.  :)  She did really good with the saw cutting off the cast.  She thought it was cool.  I was afraid she would freak out a little.  She was so good in the doctor's office today.  I was very proud of her.  It was nice, being just me and her.  That hardly happens.  I took Logan and Zoe to school at 8:25 this morning and made it to the doctor's with her by 8:30.  She was only 15 mins late to school.  It was rather fast.  I was happy.  She got the cast off, two xrays of her wrist, and the doctor observed her.  We were in and out and maybe two minutes of waiting before going in.  :)  Mira said it felt funny...lol

And I decided to call work to see if they needed me, and they said if I could come in to do the emails that would be great...  :)  They told me I didn't have to and could wait till Wed, but I told them I would come for that.  It is easy.  Hopefully I will quit gagging.  I have a major cough.  Blah.  I am not really sick though.

Well, I think that sums up everything!

Wednesday, October 8, 2008


I am so happy.

Let's see why...

Tonight I am working at the college fair at the Towne Mall.  :)  So, that means... more hours which will make up for the week of work I missed due to no babysitter.  :)

My house sparkles now...lol  I have a clean kitchen and it is wonderful.  (usually there are piles of papers on the counters...  but got it all gone and sorted and whatnot.  My bathroom usually is never bad, so it is about the same right now...  The toy room has a few bags in it that I want to sort through.

The kids' room is great for the most part.  They keep it cleaned up pretty good now.  Since I threw so many toys away that were for toddlers...  :) It has been nice!

My laundry room is really the only room that needs the work.  But that wouldn't be too difficult.  It is just getting in there.  I almost dread going through all the clothes.  I can pitch quite a few items of clothing out easily.  Have quite a few size four t clothes I can toss.  :)  But that is what I don't want to do...  :(  I hate throwing clothes away or giving to goodwill because I have a tendency to want to keep them to look back at them as they get older...  It is really all dumb that I want to keep them... but whatever. 

Logan and Zoe are starting to fit in some size 6's now.  It is crazy.  They grow so fast, Mira is still a size six.  Probably be wearing a size six on her seventh birthday.  lol...  (It is crazy, but she will be seven in THREE MONTHS (and four days)!!!

Lane and I are still talking.  I still don't see how we will work if he won't allow our child(ren) to go to any church...  But I try to keep religion out of it for now.  He is still planning to take us all camping again on the weekend of the eighteenth...  :)

well, going to work now.

Monday, October 6, 2008

12:46PM - WTF! Things are not going as smooth as I thought they would


12:26PM - Yep...


12:24PM - Is any of this true???

got this off of my myspace...  thought I would share this and I am going to research this later...

Forwarded from a friend

To All My Friends, this is every important, please take the time to read

This election has me very worried. So many things to consider.
a year ago I would have voted for Obama.
I have changed my mind three
times since than.
I watch all the news channels, jumping from one to
another. I must say this drives my husband crazy.
But, I feel if you
view MSNBC, CNN, and Fox News, you might get some middle ground to work
About six months ago, I started thinking 'where did the money
come from for Obama'.
I have four daughters who went to College, and we
were middle class, and money was tight.
We (including my girls) worked
hard and there were lots of student loans.

I started looking into Obama's life.

Around 1979 Obama started college at Occidental in California.
He is
very open about his two years at Occidental, he tried all kinds of drugs
and was wasting his time but, even though he had a brilliant mind, did
not apply himself to his studies.
'Barry' (that was the name he used all
his life) during this time had two roommates, Muhammad Hasan Chandoo and
Wahid Hamid, both from Pakistan.
During the summer of 1981, after his
second year in college, he made a 'round the world' trip.
Stopping to
see his mother in Indonesia, next Hyderabad in India, three weeks in
Karachi, Pakistan where he stayed with his roommate's family, then off
to Africa to visit his father's family.
My question - Where did he get
the money for this trip? Nether I, nor any one of my children would
have had money for a trip like this when they where in college.
When he
came back he started school at Columbia University in New York.
It is
at this time he wants everyone to call him Barack - not Barry.
Do you
know what the tuition is at Columbia? It's not cheap! to say the least.

Here did he get money for tuition? Student Loans? Maybe.
Columbia, he went to Chicago to work as a Community Organizer for
$12,000. a year.
Why Chicago? Why not New York? He was already living
in New York.

By 'chance' he met Antoin 'Tony' Rezko, born in Aleppo Syria, and a
real estate developer in Chicago.
Rezko has been convicted of fraud and
bribery this year.
Rezko, was named 'Entrepreneur of the Decade' by the
Arab-American Business and Professional Association'.
About two years
later, Obama entered Harvard Law School.
Do you have any idea what
tuition is for Harvard Law School? Where did he get the money for Law
School? More student loans? After Law school, he went back to Chicago.

Rezko offered him a job, which he turned down.
But, he did take a job
with Davis, Miner, Barnhill & Galland.
Guess what? They represented
'Rezar' which Rezko's firm.
Rezko was one of Obama's first major
financial contributors when he ran for office in Chicago.
In 2003,
Rezko threw an early fundraiser for Obama which Chicago Tribune reporter
David Mendelland claims was instrumental in providing Obama with 'seed
money' for his U.S. Senate race.
In 2005, Obama purchased a new home in
Kenwoood District of Chicago for $1.65 million (less than asking price).

With ALL those Student Loans - Where did he get the money for the
property? On the same day Rezko's wife, Rita, purchased the adjoining
empty lot for full price.
The London Times reported that Nadhmi Auchi,
an Iraqi-born Billionaire loaned Rezko $3.
5 million three weeks before
Obama's new home was purchased.
Obama met Nadhmi Auchi many times with

Now, we have Obama running for President.
Valerie Jarrett, was Michele
Obama's boss.
She is now Obama's chief advisor and he does not make any
major decisions without talking to her first.
Where was Jarrett born?
Ready for this? Shiraz, Iran! Do we see a pattern here? Or am I going

On May 10, 2008 The Times reported, Robert Malley advisor to Obama was
'sacked' after the press found out he was having regular contacts with
'Hamas', which controls Gaza and is connected with Iran.
This past
week, buried in the back part of the papers, Iraqi newspapers reported
that during Obama's visit to Iraq, he asked their leaders to do nothing
about the war until after he is elected, and he will 'Take care of

Oh, and by the way, remember the college roommates that where born in
Pakistan? They are in charge of all those 'small' Internet campaign
contribution for Obama.
Where is that money coming from? The poor and
middle class in this country? Or could it be from the Middle East?

And the final bit of news.
On September 7, 2008, The Washington Times
posted a verbal slip that was made on 'This Week' with George
Obama on talking about his religion said, 'My Muslim
faith'. When questioned, 'he make a mistake'.
Some mistake!

All of the above information I got on line.
If you would like to check
it - Wikipedia, encyclopedia, Barack Obama; Tony Rezko; Valerie Jarrett:
Daily Times - Obama visited Pakistan in 1981; The Washington Times -
September 7, 2008; The Times May 10, 2008.

Now the BIG question - If I found out all this information on my own,
Why haven't all of our 'intelligent' members of the press been reporting

A phrase that keeps ringing in my ear - 'Beware of the enemy from

11:06AM - Potential Schools... for master's degree!

This list is for me to find more stuff out of each of these schools and find potential schools that are away from OHIO!  I am looking generally in the south, where it is warm!  I will not pass up a school that is really good and freezing though!

I am hoping for something more straight down from Ohio, like FLORIDA!  I found a bit in Texas and Georgia as well.  That is close enough to Florida so we can vacation there...  :)

The one in Denver is pretty promising because of the growing city around there and it is a great city.  Though it may be cold, but I can tough it out.  I think the job market would be pretty good there as well.  And the plus side, I know someone who lives out there!  Michael's (kids' dad) brother lives out there.  And speaking of knowing someone, if I lived in Georgia, though I may be four hours away, the kids may be able to visit their dad in Georgia so they can be a part of each other's lives.  :)  I think that would be nice, but by the time I go to school, he may not be living there anymore. 

I am looking more towards the southern border of the United States though.  Looked mainly at the Texas, Florida, and Georgia area so far.  Will search more later.  Going to work now!

University of Denver (Colorado)

University of Houston (Texas)

Texas State University (Texas)

Baylor University (Waco, Texas)

University of Georgia (Athens, Georgia)

Georgia State University (Atlanta, Georgia)

Savannah State University (Georgia)

Clark Atlanta University (Georgia)

Barry Univeristy (Miami Shores, Florida)

University of South Florida (Tampa, Florida)

Arizona State University (Arizona)

Boston College (Chestnut Hill, Massachusetts)  <<-- Too cold

Boston University (Boston, Massachusetts)  <<-- Too cold

Columbia University (New York) <<-- Too cold

East Carolina University (North Carolina)

Friday, October 3, 2008

12:04PM - I am sad...

Lane and I are probably not going to work out now...  :(

We were talking about religion.  He is Jehovah's Witness and I am more or less Pentecostal.  (The only church I felt like it was home happens to be a Pentecostal church.)  I just usually claim myself to be Christian.  Well, talked about how when we had a baby or babies.. knowing my feritility...but I said, how would it go with our religious differences?  He said I don't know.  Then, we talked on the phone for an hour and a half!  Practically the whole phone conversation was all about this religion issue. 

I told him that we could do one week here and one week there, and he said no.  That pretty much sums it up for me.  If he can't compromise, even when I do, I doubt we would work it out. 

Well, the next night, my furnace was out... need a new one, but can't afford it.  It dies... a lot, but that is besides the point...  Lane came over because he is the one who fixes my furnace.  Well, while he was there, I was cleaning the kitchen up some and avoided him somewhat.  I just knew that I would say something about the religion issue. 

Well, after he finished his thing with the furnance with his fancy tools, he then came into the kitchen behind me and wrapped his arms around me like he always have.  And I kept cleaning.  I am sorry, but I am a little upset with him because he wouldn't compromise.

So, he asked me what was wrong.  I told him, the religion issue and he said it bothers you that bad?  I said yeah, because even if I compromise, you won't compromise.  Then, he said, you are willing to throw all this away over that?  I shrugged my shoulders and then, he picked up his case of his tools and walked out the door, locking on his way out.  I cried for a while after that.  I didn't watch him pull away like I usually do, because I knew that would make me cry even more. 

Ugh... Go figure... Religious views are important in any relationship to a point, especially if you are with someone that you thought you were going to spend the rest of your life with...

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